Tuesday, May 28, 2013


Tuesday, May 28, 2013

My sister getting married last September made me realize that I was always part of a Force, it was always me and my sis, the Hamzah sisters, part of the Hamzah Family. Of course her getting married kind of changed that and now I'm just lonely me.

In our school, a lot of our friends were those kinds as well, a Family Force. There were the Khatibs, the Preeces, the Joneses, the Radwans, the Soualhis, the Sanos, the Ismaiels, the Manafs, the Khans, the Abullais', the Shafiqs, the Tauseefs, the Ashours, the Elkhaldis, the Ghassans, etc.

And now we're at that age where we're starting to become the people who will be family friends ourselves. I don't know if that makes sense, but that's how I see it.

Last weekend my brother's best friend got married to my sisters best friend. It seems kind of impossible that they didn't know each other before Munira's wedding, but that's where they first met. 8 months later and they're happily married. So surreal. Throughout the whole wedding weekend it felt like my actual sister was getting married to my brother, as weird as that sounds. Because they really are like family to me. I couldn't be happier for them both :D Congratulations Zati and Lutfi!!! I had fun being a self appointed bridesmaid and unofficial photographer :)

more pics in the slideshow below :)

Today we had an appreciation bbq for us fifth years, as a way to say thanks to our supervisors and 'assistants'. It was fun prepping the bbq, cooking, eating and chatting with my studio mates. cakap pasal macam2. Some dah secured jobs, some are applying, some are starting to look for houses. My plans after graduation are kind of sketchy, but mainly consists of chilling and traveling. maybe a small job just for fun. I've always wanted to work in a bookstore, or an assembly factory.

Towards the end of the night, we all gathered round for a game of mafia wars (which you can read about here) and even though I was already ready to go home, I decided to play one round. I'm quite proud  that my first guess was absolutely spot on. too bad no one really believed me so the tyrant lived well into the game.

But sitting in that misshapen circle and staring people down made me realize that, despite everything, I know I will miss this crazy bunch.

Its the final final stretch to the finish line, just have to submit my report and Insha'Allah I'll be done with my thesis. Final presentation went alright, but more on that later. :)

Sunday, May 5, 2013

Sunday, May 5, 2013

Goodnight I said to you goodnight
Dream of all the impossible

And you wake you see
That all these dreams aren't fake
There real
Not impossible

Believe you'll be alright
Sad things you keep inside
So go tell me whats its like
Tell me what you like apart when you dream

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Food - A love/hate relationship

Thursday, May 2, 2013

If you know me personally you know I'm what some would call 'skinny'. I'm around 5'2" with a slight frame and I currently weigh 43 kg. I am definitely underweight and I know it. Not that I like being so light and wispy. A few months ago I'd been going on a steady 45kg, I was at that weight for more than 5 years with very little ups and downs. The heaviest I've ever ever been was 47kg in my third year, when we went for heritage studies.

It's not like I don't try to gain weight, I really have tried. but the pounds don't seem to stick. A few months ago there was a health screening thing in UIA and I went just for fun. My metabolism rate was off the charts, and according to the guy at the booth, it's because of my irregular sleeping pattern and irregular mealtimes. Ideally, I should be around 50kg (although the reading below said 54..I can't imagine being over 50. Masa 47 pun dah tercungap2 naik tangga kaed..)

BMR- thats my body's metabolic rate

My dilemma is this:
When people eat, they usually feel energized, yea? Not me. When I get hungry and remember to eat, I get extremely drowsy and sluggish afterwards. it's not even funny. if you ask any of my teachers/lecturers/classmates since high school they'll know I slept in just about every single class.

I'm also..lazy and forgetful when it comes to eating. If I'm at home in my room doing work or whatever, I'd usually forget to eat, and when I do remember at the end of the day or in the afternoon, I tend to be all 'I'm too lazy to go all the way downstairs and cook something..and I'm not that hungry anyways.'

When I don't eat, I will eventually get very tired and can't do work due to lack of energy (obviously) but when I do eat, I get super sleepy and can't really function as well. So, to eat or not to eat?

Being the paranoid person I am, I'm half certain that I have either narcolepsy or some weird gluten allergy/celiac disease or that there's something wrong with my blood. I mean, I know I have low blood pressure but maybe my oxygen count is low or I don't have enough blood or what. hmhmhm

I suppose one problem might be what I'm eating and when I'm eating it. I rarely have breakfast which I know, is the most important meal of the day (at least that's what everyone says) and usually only have either lunch or dinner, and at irregular times. So in an effort to make myself more food-disciplined, a friend suggested I keep a food journal. it's been 3 days since I started and immediately it's obvious that I skip breakfast and I tend to snack a lot. In our household, we usually cook with less oil and less salt because its healthier, but on my part I'm very picky about what I eat. I only eat certain veggies and only if they're fresh, etc2.

Need to start taking care of myself because who else is gonna do that. Also probably need to learn how to cook. :| And exercise/be more active.

Healthy me Insha'Allah (right after I finish my thesis >.< )

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